Hola!

Sometimes I wish I could disappear..

2011-03-18T10:14:00.000-07:00

completely alone in a reality,
heartless if how i feel.
and i guess.. well.. that’s how I'll be.

shusssh...

2009-10-09T03:14:00.000-07:00

It’s not fair to tell me that

So much sorry, that’s enough.

We’ve been decided not to talk

Please shush! You know it won’t work.

The door of my heart that I kept open

I doubt that you still can enter.

Think of what you’ve done to me,

You never did anything but to say sorry??

Take another hit,

Steal another line…

Did you ever meet a leech who was good at goodbyes?

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you

But you choose to walk away from me

So I guess it’s over and I have to end our story.

I’m happy now, I hope you too.

We should start our own, good luck to you.

~ mags

Psycho-Pain

2009-07-27T00:35:00.000-07:00

A mind-numbing,
Intense feelings
Caught in dilemmas
Emotionally broken & bleeding.

Stressed, pressured & exhausted
Bloody eyes so frustrated
No more tears left to cry
Oh sweet God, let me die.

Picture flood in my minds,
Lot of critical issues in life
Can't seem to walk or talk,
Feel empty, vague discomfort.

Prescribe me some Aspirin,
And let diminish my pain
Deep psychologic thinking
Best-worst functioning.

~mags

zzzzzzzzz.

2009-07-08T07:19:00.000-07:00

I want to sleep for the rest of my life...

Lovely dreams,
That make me smiles.
They make me forget
My sorrows every time.

Sleeping a best treat
oh, so sweet
A way to escape the pain,
Rest my brain.

It's my favorite part of the day.
So nice to sleep days away..

I want to sleep
For the rest of my life
Give me peace
I'm too tired, please.

I'm so sorry
Just a pile of self pity
I know its weird,
Am i crazy?

~mags

Silly Poem

2009-07-06T08:05:00.000-07:00

So dead bored. Figured out some best ways help to kill boredom...fun games, dance with your dogs, eat everything and anything, sing out loud even if you cant sing, make funny scrapbooks, and make silly poems lol. All 99% guaranteed! haha :)

I wrote this out of complete utter boredom....

PUKAW

Tawa, ngisi
Amo ka la pirmi
Ka-waray tuhay
Tim huna-huna iday!

Pag-upay tim kinabuhi
Lagas ka na ngani
Ka-waray nim klaro
Tim utok, duro.

Ano tim karuyag mahitabo
tim lawas?
Hit im pagtindog
baga ka nan lagas.

Upaya iday, upaya!
Gugma-a tim kalugaringon
mintras sayo pa.

it's written in WARAY dialect. I will translate it when i do have time :)

~mags

Cry my self to sleep..

2009-07-03T11:49:00.000-07:00

04:54 am

Pass the Vicodin please! :'(

My spine is seriously killing me tonight...wakes me up at night and keeps me from falling asleep.! Yes. I have scoliosis, I have a 10 degree curvature in my spine. I never thought of going to a Doctor for check-up, no. Call me stubborn, surely am.

I know this isn't worse but whenever i thought of surgery--they will screw some metal rods and pins into the vertebrae and basically yank the spine into relative straightness, this things makes my back hurt so much and make me cry. I know it's too early to think about this stuff but i cant help my self. I'm so afraid of surgery. The possibility of surgery is still waaaay on the backburner for me. I do exercises before thou it hurts sometimes when I exercise. And can’t sit without back support for long periods of time.

Crying my throat out! I just do hope this thing wont get worse.

~mags

Sweet Friendship

2009-07-01T04:59:00.000-07:00

This poem was taken from a friend Joseph Scott. Thanks my friend, liked it! I also would like to extend my thanks to all my friends. A big hug to all of you guys! *grin*

Knowing

My lady dancing with you my mind drifts away,
to a beautiful place we will see one day.
In the vision I have seen,
I am a King and you are a Queen.
What lies ahead we only know now to embrace
what we have and not focus on the how.

I am here for you I always will be,
The man you seek without mystery.
I will reveal in good time ,
what it is you look for that's on my mind.
Then and there is where we'll be,
with friendship and care I'm sure you will see.

If what you have been thinking and have not told,
may I be the first to say it:to be so bold.
I am your friend you know this to be true,
for in that I am feeling a growing respect for you.

You have brought me many smiles to a face once blue.
I thank you and in return,
I'll do the same for you.
Besides you being so sweet and dear to me
I want you to know,
That your precious to me.
So now in wondering on how I feel.
I want you to know that what we share is very real.

"A sweet friendship refreshes the soul." Proverbs 27:9

150 minutes of pure, adrenaline pleasure!

2009-06-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

Hola! my week was real-quick. But fun weekend this time. Had the chance to spend time again with my cousins. About a month since we go out and hang out, been busy with each others life lol. It's like we're not living at one roof that we rarely talk to each other now...yay! Thanks to Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. We've got the reason to go out and watch the movie together..at least!

Just a little review about the movie hehe. As the film quickly got started and from there it never really let up, the action was constant with plenty of humor along the way. The style was very much the same as the 1st film just with more of it. As expected, the effects were spectacular. The fight scenes were extravagant and fast-paced. I enjoyed watching almost every minute of it. The movie was about 2 1/2 hours, mann so long...i want it moreeee than one-fifty minutes though. But almost at the end part of the movie made me sad, optimus prime died. I almost cried as i've heared my cousin sitting next to me crying...yay! (hahaha yot :P) And wooot! Bomb! XD Megan Fox is incredibly hott, funny little decepticon trying to hump the leg of her haha. The two twin robots who I can't remember their names were funny too. I came out smiling and wanting more.

All in all the movie is visually dynamic and has the most outstanding special effects since the last Transformers. It was genuinely entertaining. AWESOME MOVIE. cant wait for the third one. :)

~mags

starter...

2009-06-24T05:57:00.000-07:00

Holaaaa guys! I'm not really fond of bloggin', so ionno how to start this... yay! By the way, I made a poem a year ago, time when i was down and feelin' betrayed. lmao So was thinkin' why not post it here. Here it is....

He's a Player!

March 27 he came into my life
I'm so glad to be on his side
There's something on him that makes me happy
Then we go out often, eventually

23 months we've been together
I was in love and I wanna be with him forever
He was nice, looks so pure
I never thought it was a lure.

I thought he loved me, I was wrong!
But I just closed my eyes and stayed strong
We've fight a lot, he made me sad
I prayed one day he won't hurt me bad.

After Valentine's Day, he said it's over!
Then I've found out, he found a new lover.

It was a game, alright!
But how can I even fight?
It's like playing tennis against Roger Federer,
You think I can win with sucha good player?

~ mags